"I wanted to like it, and to say that I am beautiful, and it is to Leva seen and heard ... Otherwise, why be nice? My charming little Petya loves his old nurse, it is for him the beauty and Lyova for all persons alike, even the ugly ... I want to put her hair. No one will notice, but still it will be fascinating. What makes me want to be seen? Bows, ribbons, all gives me pleasure, I would like a new leather belt, and now, when I write these lines, I want to cry ... "- writes Sophia Tolstaya, after ten years of marriage.